1. Paul Falcone
    Paul Falcone December 22, 2016 at 6:50 pm | | Reply

    I was borne in 1950 with an obscure blood disease called Neutropenia, a white blood cell deficiency, which was considered rare and fatal. Within twenty minutes of being borne the germs were at me and I was sick. I went to Dartmouth where they diagnosed the problem that was considered 60% fatal at that time. I went from one infection to another and each birthday was a wonder that I had survived another year. I almost died four times but for some reason came back for another birthday. By ten I was more than tired of the whole thing, the cycle of slowly getting better and then a plateau of wellness while all the time afraid and thinking that the germs knew my name, so I changed it, announced I wanted my middle name Paul, that Freddy was dead. Always it felt that the thread between life and death was very thin and tenuous, ready to go at any time. I remember floating in a coma feeling very relaxed and unworried, surrounded by other beings, then waking up in my own body feeling very dispirited, angry even, to have lived because I knew I would just get sick again and wanted it over. But what I can say with certainty, is that where you go after death is a very comfortable, peaceful place, without pain, cold or ego, among many others, who have gone before, which I look forward to at the end.

  2. Donna Fellinger
    Donna Fellinger June 9, 2017 at 7:35 am | | Reply

    Hi Erica
    I have been catching your very thoughtful Rumble Strips occasionally the last year or so. What a great approach to life. I heard the one aired Thursday morning June 7 and wanted to share that with some close friends. I could not figure out how to capture just that segment. Is there a way to do that.
    Your name brings many memories – I hope you are still singing somewhere and that your son also is a singer.
    I will connect Rumble Strip with Eric and Jeff

  3. Bess O'Brien
    Bess O'Brien June 10, 2017 at 5:59 pm | | Reply

    Another moving, powerful piece Erica. Bravo. Bess

  4. Pam DeAndrea
    Pam DeAndrea November 22, 2017 at 4:18 pm | | Reply

    Wow Erica. This was amazing. Susie is amazing in how she articulated the feelings of having to endure something so unimaginable. I lost a baby when Jack was just 2 and it was Susie who comforted me and even told me the cheese story! That story helped me so much and she probably never realized but she among no one else knew what I was going through. At first I felt like my ordeal was not as bad because our baby would not have made it to the due date but she helped me to know that I had a loss all the same. Thanks for airing this.

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